Tuesday I was admitted to hospital. I had a nervous breakdown, caused by Abilify in part, plus constant stress, health problems, etc. I’m being treated on the short term ward, I will be here about 4 more days while my team changes my meds and monitors the response.
The Abilify was removed instantly, a nurse told me those two drugs don’t work well together anyway. Instead I’ve now been put on Seroquel , 100 mg at night, 50 mg 2x day. We will see if it helps stabilize my mood, lift my depression, help me sleep, and decrease agitation, suicidal urges etc. Hopefully it won’t make me get fat, maintaining my weight is very important to me. Or to doped up, don’t like that either.
I’m also going to be starting their Day Hospital here, in about 3 or 4 weeks. The problem with that is I will need a place to stay in the city for the 6 week program as I can’t travel 1 hr. each way 4 times a week with my CFS. They will be lodging me at the Point pleasant Lodge, it’s free, covered by my Disability Assistance, and they have a shuttle to take me back and forth to the hospital. or I can walk in around 15 minutes.. I will receive food vouchers to use at their restaurant. All other incidentals are my responsibility, as are my meds.
I will be far from my family for 6 weeks. which will be hard on us all, especially my boyfriend :’(. But I need to take care of myself, or I can’t be a help to anyone and if I killed myself….well they tell me its one of the most traumatic events for remaining family members to go through and I don’t want to do that to my family.
I’ll be posting updates to this entry as things transpire. Wish me luck!
P.S. I am on a very small unit, there are only 5 of us. The nurses are AMAZING, and my shrink is very sweet. My while team is wonderful and the people on the ward with me are very nice. I feel safe here and my brain and body are resting for the first time in a month.