Well, Tuesday I was admitted to hospital. I had a nervous breakdown, caused by Abilify in part, plus constant stress, health problems, etc. I’m being treated on the short term ward, I will be here about 4 more days while my team changes my meds and monitors the response.
The Abilify was removed instantly, a nurse told me those two drugs don’t work well together anyway. Instead I’ve now been put on Seroquel , 100 mg at night, 50 mg 2x day. We will see if it helps stabilize my mood, lift my depression, help me sleep, and decrease agitation, suicidal urges etc. Hopefully it won’t make me get fat, maintaining my weight is very important to me. Or to doped up, don’t like that either.
I’m also going to be starting their Day Hospital here, in about 3 or 4 weeks. The problem with that is I will need a place to stay in the city for the 6 week program as I can’t travel 1 hr. each way 4 times a week with my CFS. They are looking into lodgings of some sort (a group home?), or I might just stay with a friend here in the city IF his roommate agrees and IF they have a spare room and IF it’s not too far from the hospital or I can get here with 1 bus. Lots of IF’s!.
It’s complicated, but do-able, though I will be far from my family for 6 weeks. which will be hard on us all, especially my boyfriend :'(. But I need to take care of myself, or I can’t be a help to anyone and if I killed myself….well they tell me its one of the most traumatic events for remaining family members to go through and I don’t want to do that to my family.
I’ll be posting updates to this entry as things transpire. Wish me luck!
P.S. I am on a very small unit, there are only 5 of us. The nurses are AMAZING, and my shrink is very sweet. My while tream is wonderful and the people on the ward with me are very nice. I feel safe here and my brain and body are resting for the first time in a month.